:)

6 days till closing on our house and like 90 days till wedded bliss. We are very much excited. Tonight I made Josh his lunch in a cute tupperware with compartments in it and I loved every second of it. I am a nerd. If theres anyone who deserves a nice compartmentalized lunch though, it's Josh - he was so sweet to me tonight as I definitely cried at the number on the scale. I stepped on the scale pre workout and it was so bad that I ran up to meet josh in the main part of the gym and I started crying. He walked me out of the gym and held me and told me I wasnt fat. He told me that the bagel I had had that morning was holding in lots of water weight. I am not sure if that was true or not but dang it made me feel good.

Well thats all I got for today. I am still getting used to this whole blogging thing again....not sure anyone cares about these small details in my life - but I like to document them and hey, if you like to stalk my blog- I am ok with that.

A rare spiritual blog.

It's 11:26 pm. I have to work in the morning. Would love to get up early and spend time with Jesus, doing the real prep work for marriage....but instead I sit, like a creepy obsessive lady looking a photos of strangers' weddings. It's so draining. On facebook I click on "all friends" I scroll through the list asking myself "now who may have attended a wedding recently and posted pictures of it on facebook?" I click away. Scouring the weddings of strangers comparing dresses, flower ideas and hairstyles. Feeling - most of the time - insecure about my own wedding. Comparing sucks. My sister reminded me it won't stop with the wedding...I'll compare my wedding, my body, my talents, my clothes, my money, my car, my house, my kids, my husband....I am not sure I know quite how to fight it over than immerse myself in truth somehow, but the thing with sin is that we like to cling to it and don't realize the freedom we have to let it go. Just some thoughts and stuff God is teaching me through wedding planning....and now, some thought provoking shane and shane lyrics.

there is a wicked man in me

wanting the wicked man's disease

fleeting pleasures, but pleasure indeed

oh Lord, take my envy of these things

and the prideful war within

take me to the place of sweet surrender

You are, You were, You will always be better!

this is a song of surrenderfor whom have i but You?

You are, You are better

forever so much better than the world

You are my portion (Lord you are...)

You are my portion (my reward...)

You are my portion

my never ending, overflowing Lord

The verbal equivalent of fingernails on a chalkboard

People.

For the love of everything holy can we please stop using the term "Bestie" and also the prepositional phrase "to love on people." If you have a best friend - just call her your BFF, or your Best Friend - but to shorten it to something like "Bestie" is just so silly. What if we took all adjectives and made them nouns? It's would not be pretty.

Second of all - and this phrase has been bothering me since it showed up on my creepy word radar in mid 2003...."love on people." This just sounds kind of weird. All I ask is that we take out the word ON. I like loving. I like people. But to love ON people....creep-tastic.

So consider doing your part in putting an end to the madness. Don't be afraid to call people out on their usage of such phrases, confront in love, and together we can stop the lameness.

Ok. That is all. Just had to vent for a minute.

Home Owners!

Well, Joshy and I bought our FIRST house! We are very excited. It is a lovely little home in Gilbert. We love the hood because it feels like a neighborhood that is on the east coast because the streets are practically tree lined:) (are streets tree lined on the east coast?) Anyways. We close on August 21 - and Josh will move in sometime after that. Now I have a whole house to decorate and am excited for the challenge. Here are some things that will go asap:

* 80s ceiling fans
* astro turf in the sun room (could keep this for possible putt putt course)
* spare fridge on the back porch making us look slighly white trash - or like we buy meat in bulk

The house is very close to Freestone park so josh and I can go to the park whenever - which I can almost guarantee is something we will say we will do all the time, but we wont.

Wedding planning is coming along nicely. This week Jen (my sister-in-law to be) is helping me with invites. My mom is gearing up to help me with some sewing projects and my dress should be in the first week of August! Ok, this blog is neither funny NOR deep and spiritual - but oh well. Pics to come as soon as I locate my camera cord:)

New Blog!

I've decided that my old blog is struggling....so heck, why not start over? Lots has changed this year - Josh and I went from being good friends, to dating to getting married in 125 days (but who's counting?). Hopefully this blog will help document our first year together - and other random insights I may have! Thanks for visiting, updates to come!